Sometimes in order for God to bless you, you need to be broken.
Weak, humble, all of your securities of this world and physical life need to be gone. Your strongest strength taken from you, then God can bless you and give you eternal and lasting strength that can do anything, even the impossible. You must lose yourself to God, to find yourself in God.
Jacob learnt this lesson in a painful way. His strong hipbone shattered. Only then did God bless him and rename him Israel. And his life was changed.
"There is nothing more I need than You,
Nothing I have seen has been more beautiful,
Nothing I have learnt more true,
Than coming to know more of You.
Having been touched by you,
The rest of the whole world fades,
Been broken down,
So I can rise again.
You break me to made me,
You kill me to heal me,
You're in me, I'm in You,
You love me, and I love You."
