He says to me, "Jae, my grace is enough for you. Remember, my power is made perfect in weakness."
So I lean into His gentle presence and reply, "I will then gladly boast in my weaknesses, so that you, and your strength and might, and every thing that is possible with You, will be also with me."
2 Corinthians 12:9
I am still learning how to live*, each day. I think we all are. And that's okay. No matter how old you are. Because living is a lifelong choice and commitment.
I am a wreck, and I struggle almost every day to not be one. But I am. I fail a lot. I let my emotions take control of my relationships. I let them rip apart people I love. I don't honour my parents everyday. I choose selfishness, or fail to find time. I get distracted by things that are not going to last. I choose this world. This flesh. This shadow reality. I fall to temptation.
But in all these moments. I know that some days I fight really hard. Among all these days, there will be one that I choose to encourage my friends, my family. There will be one that I dig into His word. There will be one that I fall on my knees and am drawn into prayer or worship. There will be one that I feel Him nearer. And when I have one of those days, I can only come to that singular conclusion: He makes it possible.
I love Him so much. Only in Him am I complete and worthy. And I will spend all my days running to His side. No matter how far back I find myself, I hope I will always keep running.
After all, I can't run physically, so I have to get my exercise Spiritually :P
*eternally
